"Just Leave Me Your Stardust to Remember You By"

Hello,
Do you ever feel...hmm. How do I describe it? Deflated. Haha.
When you think something is going a certain way, and then, "pop!" just kidding, your an idiot for getting your hopes up. I'm sure everybody has felt that at some point. I know I have many times, and now once more. Excellent. Keep it coming.
I get all inspired by Destiny's Child or whatever to be an, "Independent Woman," with an "I depend on me," attitude. I'd feel like a tough, badass girl rockin' it on my own, just doing my thing. Then I'd basically take one look at a guy and just take it back all of a sudden as if I were just kidding about that.
Whoops!
I'm not sure what was going on there, but there's going to be no more of that from now on. I'm sticking to my guns from here on out. My little heart is too fragile for me to just toss it around like a hacky-sack. I'm in no way blaming these things on anyone else, it's my problem if I'm throwing my emotions around. I just need to start being careful with what I do with them. Back to square one.
It's kind of too bad that he'll never know, and it's kind of too bad that I want to build a wall because I always thought that I was the type that wouldn't hold back, but who would live in the moment.
Or, you know what, maybe I'm just making a mountain out of a mole hill and I'll get over it in a few days. Honestly, I do think that it is healthy to live with emotion, and to not lock your feelings away. If I went the rest of my life with just being careful all the time, how BORING would that be? No, it's good to put it all out there. It's good to feel. Not only the good feelings, but the tough ones too. It's good feel happy and excitement and love! It's good to feel anticipation, nervousness, even frustration, sadness, anger, and heartbreak. To feel wonderstruck, act on whims, and be spontaneous! That's who I am. What is life, if you don't ever feel anything? Am I right or am I right?
Go with your gut and go with the flow- that's my new motto. I just made it up, straight from the heart!

It just stings when things don't go as planned, so maybe I'll live with an open heart, but just never get my hopes up for anything. If something is going to happen, it will work out on it's own time and course.
I really am an optimist at heart.

"Guess I'm wishing my life away, with these things I'll never say"