Ow :(

"Think about the good things no matter what they say. We'll take tomorrow baby one day at a time"

My heart. Has never hurt so much before in it's life.
Ouch. :(

I don't remember a day of my life when I didn't have my cat Kenny.
And I'm not sure if I can wrap my head around the fact that he will be gone forever on Monday.


It's good to be aware of death and how it can creep into your life in some way at any time.
I think I am often aware of it.
There are have been many nights when I lay awake and wonder. I wonder what I would do or how I would feel if somebody I loved passed away- even my kitty. I knew one day this would happen.

And now the time is coming. We are putting him down because he has a brain tumor. He has been acting weird the past while, and is just getting increasingly worse. We don't want him to keep on living if life is painful for him. He is fourteen years old and I even vaguely remember the first day we got him. He was born on my Aunt's farm and we drove him all the way back home from Smithers. I was so excited :).

Now I don't even know what to say anymore.

It is a horrible feeling. Having part of your life being ripped away from you.


I just think how he won't be around to play with the wrapping paper next Christmas. He won't be climbing trees, basking in the summer sun, "making cookies" on my lap, or cuddling me to sleep, or walking over the laptop keyboard anymore. He won't be there sitting on the porch, greeting me, when I come home.

Kenny was so goofy, he always made our family laugh. In a sense, he was the glue that held us together. Kenny never took sides, he had a special relationship with us all.
When I was a kid, he would follow me to the bus stop- always looking out for me.

Even though it is hard, I must celebrate his life and always think back on the good memories with a smile.
I must be grateful that I had an amazing cat like that all. He was one of a kind, a cat for even those who disliked cats to like.

Often in the summer you could find him laying underneath our rosebush.
That's where we are going to bury him.

I hope you rest in peace Kenny. <3