"I Ain't Settling For Anything Less Than Everything"

Hello!
So.
I was just talking to my friend, and I brought up how I wanted to get out of this town so bad. This is because I feel very limited, in many aspects.
Number one, the boy situation, obviously. Now, I am very used to being single, I've only not been single for six months out of my whole life. So I'm not the type to need a boy to make me feel happy. Let's face it, this is a small town and everybody knows everybody here! There really isn't much selection. I've either grown up with them my whole life, or I know somebody who has dated them, or my parents know their parents, or something awkward like that.
And say none of that matters, say I end up kind of liking somebody. I don't want to settle for someone just because they are the only one I like out of the boys that I have to choose from.
I need to get out of this town and go somewhere bigger. I need to get out and meet people and run into somebody I go crazy for. I don't want to go for just any guy, when there could be somebody way better for me somewhere else. Do you know what I'm trying to get at?

I need "wide open spaces, room to make her big mistakes. She needs new faces, she knows the high stakes."

Number two, do you ever just feel like you have so much potential for this world. So full of ambition to do something wonderful- for yourself, for other people, and for the planet. But for crying out loud, you just don't know for what! You know that you have so many options, so many different paths you can go down, so much room for mistakes, so much time to make changes, and it's really quite overwhelming. I feel that if I stay in this town for too much longer that I will lose it. I am craving to get out and experience other things, to tear down the fences.
I also fear that if I stay here for too long that I will lose the ambition and the feeling like I am meant for more than this.


Don't get me wrong, I love this small town. I was born and raised here, and I love the small town feel. I really do like the fact that I can go to Safeway and run into people I know every single time. You never feel like your are alone in the middle of a huge crowd like you may feel in the city.

Well, bedtime. I know good things will come to me. It's all a matter of patience.

"Keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart."